The Truth.

I think about him all the time.

I have to constantly push thoughts of him out of my mind.

I am haunted by him.

Everything I do, I wonder what it'd be like to have him there.

I fight back tears when I realize that all I thought I'd have, I wont.

I know I may never see him again.

I know he didn't choose me.

I know that it wasn't up to me.

I never thought things would turn out this way.

My heart just hurts.