Tuscaloosa

Sorry for my absence--  I've been in Tuscaloosa, AL working with about 45 other singles from my church doing disaster relief.  I meant to post before I left but time got away from me.  I want to tell you all about it but I am exhausted so I will leave you with one of the most breathtaking views God has ever gifted me.

Enjoy

A lot of changes are happening in my life right now and I am freaking out.

These changes are occurring because of the positions of others and the changes that are happening in their lives.

I am scared because I cant see what it is that God is doing. 

I dont know what to do next.

I dont know what He is telling me.

And I dont know how he is going to provide.


I dont know anything and when I dont know anything... I choose to pray.... to trust Him.... to look towards Him...

Becuase really.... what else could I do?

Sweet Caroline,

       Today will forever be etched in my mind as a day of sorrow... and joy.  Today, we found out that sometime over the weekend, your precious little heart had stopped beating. My heart aches that you were never able to take your first breath here on this earth... but my heart cries tears of joy because I know that you are safely in the arms of Jesus... that your face is a sight of perfection... your hands and feet have all their fingers and toes.... your brain is whole... and your body has been made new.
      Caroline Elise, do you know how many people have loved you since the day we learned of your existence?  Your precious name has been spoken aloud so many times that it could be etched in the sky and no one would find it odd. We love you and we have never even met you.  We love you despite your diagnosis.... despite the fact that we knew you were never made for this world.  At some point along the way... the words Trisomy 13 stopped being seen as a death sentence... and started being seen as a precious gift from your heavenly father.  You, baby girl, don't ever have to experience the pain of this world..... you, little one, got to be born into the warm embrace of your creator.
         Your mommy is one of the most amazing mommys I have ever known.  She loves you more than life itself and she would have given you her life had it been possible.  But because she couldnt, she instead chose to carry your little body within the safety of her womb. You were such a fighter.  We realized that every single week that your heart continued to beat even when we were told not to expect it anymore.  You survived 13 weeks longer than the doctors said you would.  Ironic that the same number that took your life, also represented life.  Your mommy never questioned carrying you.  She knew that she would love you just as she loves your brother... because you are her baby...because you were fearfully and wonderfully made.
          Your life is my light... and I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to love you... to dream of you... and to marvel at your beauty when your perfect and precious body comes into this world. Thank you- for all that you are.  I love you sweet baby girl.

Miss A

9/11

We will never forget.

Inspire Me.... Tuesday? :)

Holden

Spent the weekend at Holden Beach with some friends-

I seriously think I cried when I realized the weekend was over and I had to go back to the real world.

Thank God for good friends, the beach, and vacays!

:)

PS sorry I didnt post an Inspire Me! Monday post-  I am still pretending I am on vacation.... haha-... Im definitely not